Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who posted, e-mailed and sent PMs.
I am feeling battered and bruised today but ready to carry on.
You guys prove over and over again what wonderful people you are and sometimes I feel like a total fraud coming here and that I don't deserve your support because I wasn't a born-in nor abused and I was the only person in my family that was ever involved with JWs and it was my choice to get involved.
I feel my girls are justified in hating me for denyng them a proper childhood with xmas and birthdays etc. Forcing them to meetings, field service and assemblies.
At least they have successful happy lives now and I didn't ruin their potential for finding fulfillment in their work and marriages. Even the youngest is at college studying so will hopefully succeed in life too.
They don't need me or want me and some days it is harder to accept than others, especially with all the other uncertainties going on in my life at the moment.
Thank you all once again for getting me through such a horrible day.
Lots of love
Amelia xxx